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I feel like I’m stuck in a rut. It’s the same thing; day in, day out. I know that it isn’t always the same, but it just feels that way. Nothing exciting (not that I’m going out of my way to do exciting things), always the same feelings.
Highs and lows. That’s what life is about right? High moment, passing my accounting test. Phew! Low moment, Andrew getting annoyed with me. We have a lot of moments like that. Our whole relationship is just like a roller coaster, and it’s taking some getting used too. I’ve never been in a relationship that has so many ups and downs, good days and bad. It’s exciting, but it’s really beating my emotions up.
I like to think that being this way is better than just always being… placid. Stagnant. On an even keel. It’s good to have ups and downs, because then when something huge comes along, it’s not that much more rocking the boat. (What’s with all these terrible cliches…?) It definitely makes the making up so much better, I’ve never really had that. I’m so terrible, I immediately assume the worst. I don’t know how to act when someone else is obviously upset, annoyed or mad at me. I’m a bit of an airhead. I’ve never had to deal with that before.
He asked me today if I wanted to break up, and I was like… what the hell? No, I do not. So he told me to deal with it, and we’ll just try our best not to annoy each other. This shall be interesting if we live together. I think it’s really because he goes away so much. I’m not going to stop him, but it’s really, really tough for me. A lot harder than I thought it would be. I feel like I’m constantly complaining about this as well… But I just can’t help it.
