I swear. This will be my last one…Well… I have a few.. because the holidays are coming up. So I’ll need to splurge on gifts. But I’ll stay within my price ranges for all the people on my list. I’ll only splurge on myself a little bit.. Sigh.
I just have so many things I want to accomplish next year; trips that I want to do, move out hopefully, get a car, the list just keeps on growing with expenses, but nothing incoming is changing. Maybe I should get try to get a part time retail job again… for the weekends? I just don’t really want to become nothing but a workaholic. Sometimes I wish I could be more like my brother, and just go with the flow. Not have to have a life plan all the time. But then when I don’t have a plan, I just start falling apart.
Deep Breathe. I’m only 23. I have a general outline. I can do it. I don’t have to be stressing about spending money, saving money, whether or not I can make my life work in the next year.
I love how this non-shopping post turned into a mini-meltdown. It’s crazy how much just a good night’s sleep can change your whole perspective of life. Yesterday (when I started this post) I was a mess. Down, depressing, worried about what I’m going to do with my life. I was having a slight panic attack. But thankfully, that’s over. I have a clear plan about what I’m going to do in the relatively near future, and I’m going to work out the money.
I wish that money didn’t play such a huge role in my life. It sadly controls everything in this world, and it’s hard to live with out it. But such is life.
