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Countdown: Roughly 14 more days.
This time that Andrew’s been away, things are going much smoother. Totally helps that we are further along in our relationship, a little more settled, know each other better, and we webcam. Not the dirty webcam… Just so we can see each other, talk and pretend that we’re in the same room. We just go about our regular online selves, and it’s rather boring to most people. Mom said that it was creepy, but I don’t care… It’s better than having to text or MSN and having it misconstrued. So far I’ve only been unreasonably upset once.
Last night was a really good conversation. It turned from flirty and fun, into serious and intense. In a good way. He was telling me how he’s been thinking about moving out and living with me, (because of my circumstances, I will have to move out summer of this year) and how even though he wants to do that, he really hates the idea of renting. So he was putting together a plan for us, and even though he knows my circumstances, he didn’t want me to hate him for saying what he did. So cute. How could I hate him? I know that he hates renting, and his plan is good. I like it. He wants to live at home until next year and then buy a house. For us. Which is fine, but I just worry about us living together. How do we know that we’re alright, and that we’ll be fine? It’s such a nervewracking idea. So, I’m thinking that he’ll be over at my place a lot anyways, so it doesn’t really matter, and we’ll be able to adjust from that. Even if he still is living at home.
I just keep telling myself “Everything will work out”. I don’t want to ruin this, jinx this, make it disappear. It’s crazy how much I want this.
