SUMMER! Wherefore art thou!? Such a tease, giving us one good day of weather only to replace it with a week of crappy rain. I’m tired of it! It’s MAY, Mother Nature. We should be rolling in sunshine, not drowning in rain.
Tonight is my first softball game. Exhibition, of course, but I’m super nervous about it. It’s also raining (of course) and I don’t really know anyone on the team other than A-MoG and his fiancee. I’ve met them all once, and it doesn’t help that we aren’t going to be practising so I’m just going to continue sucking for the rest of the season. I’m not a super girly girl, but I’m definitely not a baseball player. Soccer all the way, and they can tell because I jump in front of the ball, and don’t use my hands. Hah, I’m going to die. This season should be interesting. My brother’s team invited me to their practises so I might go depending on how sore I am after tonight. They’re pretty early Saturday mornings too, but if my brother goes, then maybe I’ll go out for it. Might as well get some practise and his team is pretty chill. It’s funny to think of the baseball family that we’ve turned out to be. I put so much extra pressure on myself to be good and not let the team down by being a girl, that it makes me nervous. And sick! I’m so worried that people will hate me because I’m terrible. Even though subconciously and deep down I know that’s not the case, but it’s just my own insecurities about not being good at something coming through. Should be alright though, I will keep you posted! Hopefully my body doesn’t try to kill me again afterwards. One of those nights is quite enough.
I’m so excited for this coming summer though. Big tingz are going down. Lots of big plans, lots of exciting things. Nothing can get me down. No girl drama, no group drama, no boy drama. Nothing. I’ve been flying high this whole week. Just unreasonably happy. I’ve been happy for everything too. Things have been going good for me and my girl out in BC. Things have been good with the family. Things have been good with friends. Things will be good with baseball. I’m getting my life in order. It seems that I’m always getting my life in order. I’m flexible, but I’m on a plan. A schedule. Goals that need to be met this year. I need to get these done. I will feel like, and be a failure if I don’t. I’ll put them in a new list on here. That way, I actually have to get them done.
Woot.
xoxo
