It’s just a crush. Harmless. Oh so satisfying. Probably not to most people, because there’s always the fall after. But not really for me. I love them. Probably the best part of liking a person (this is why I’m single…)
I’ve been working on getting back to me. Getting back to the old me, the one before the relationship. Less hermit, more stripper. In college, I didn’t start off as a party girl, but by 2nd year, I wasn’t the most hardcore but I had a rep. It was awesome (helped that I was the only asian girl in my school) but it was good. Plus there were always guys to like. I was a little flaky with guys back then, my longest relationship had been 2 months max. I changed my mind too much and liked liking guys. I would change my mind around pretty much every couple of weeks. Sometimes not even that long. I was always amazed as each month went by that I was still in a relationship with Tiz. Almost 2 years? Unheard of with me. Refreshing to know that I can do it though. I do have that capability.
But right now, I can have crushes. I have a slight crush on someone already. It’s been awhile, and it’s interesting. I’ve missed how it feels. The butterflies, the unknown of whether he’s into you or not. Although with me, it’s always gone in a little bit so I’m not to worried, and I never let people know about it, because what’s the point? If they do like me back, I’ll probably lose interest. It’s not worth it. For now, it’s just worth the flirting practise. Because I need it.
Crush – Jennifer Paige
Oldie but sooo good. Perfect song for me.
xoxo
