The boy has officially left. As of 11.30 Sunday morning, he is currently in Saskatoon. The month starts now.
This month away without the boy will be good for me I think. I’ll be able to get some things done, find myself again, do some inner reflection. I’ve been so emotionally unstable this past week, I don’t even know why. Yeah, I have a lot of pressure now, and I’m trying to get my life in order but that’s not really anything. I’ve cried every day this week. For different things, but pretty much at a drop of a hat. Quite an emotional wreck. Lots of highs and lows, and so inconsistent! Hard to get a handle on me. I’m apparently annoying when I’m like that.
I figured it out! FULL MOON. This week the moon has been super huge, and totally explains why I’ve been in such a catastrophic mood. I was in a full blown panic on Thursday, enough so that I was even contemplating not spending the weekend with him. It was a rough, rough week for both of us. I was all over the map, which was causing him to be upset and driving him crazy; not to mention myself. I did stick to my guns and went to over to his place on Thursday, and must say that I am glad that I did.
This month shall be interesting. This week I should be ok, next week will suck. I can’t believe how much I miss him, even though we talk all the time. Hard to believe. But this month, things are coming up real fast so I’ll survive, hopefully. With my G test on Monday, and soon my flight out to BC, I’m excited!! I can’t wait to start packing for it. I’m going to have to look at the suitcases that I have to see what size to bring… How much space my stuff will take up, and how much space I’ll have for stuff to bring home, because hells yea I’m going shopping! I’ll put myself on a budget…. *shifty eyes*