My oh my. Crushes are probably the most exciting thing. The only problem is determining what is real and what is just lust or infatuation. Such a rush.
I think I like figuring them out. What makes them tick, beat, etc. That’s part of the challenge for me. When there’s no challenge left, or it’s not interesting enough anymore, I grow bored, and then I’m done. I like the chase. I want to have the competition. I like winning. It’s a game.
I just re-read that and that seems so heartless. But… it’s how I am? I’m not super warm and cuddly. I can be, but it takes a long time for that to happen. And I don’t think that I ever truly have my whole heart out there for the world to see.
But I found it. Trouble. Makes me want to crack his code. The one who’ll help me get back.
xoxo
